I shouldn't even be posting.

I don't have anything to say.
I just kinda wanted to post this picture of some food.
I'm using it as album art for my album that I made.
It has two songs on it.

Ugh...
I just got really uncomfortable for a second.
That's been happening a lot lately.
Crap!
Okay, never mind.
Hmm.
But yeah, this is weirdin' me out.
I would like it to stop.
I don't think I can though.

Food:

Here is this.

He is so attractive.
Right?
Just... copy and paste.
Watch the whole thing... but it's at the beginning and end.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHOPJ4XeHIE&feature=related

baffle, mystify, bemuse, perplex, puzzle, confound, informal flummox, faze, stump, fox, discombobulate, bedazzle.

Do you see a pattern?

Ugh...

My brain is so sad.

I need to talk to Heather.

I don't know anything about anybody up here, and she hasn't been around to guide me around the icky people, so I've been sitting here trying to sort through it myself.

Which is a horrible idea because I'm am very co-dependant.

I think I'm falling for this guy.

I don't want to.

But I am.

He reminds me of brad, but more like Billy.

Ew... People can't name their kids in Saint Cloud.

I miss Billy so much.

He was such a good friend.

Any ways...

I think if I don't talk to Heather about him, I'm just going to to something myself.

I might...

I don't want to give to much away.

It seems... almost tacky.

So...

Here is like, my favourite LOL cat ever.

Yuck.

I'm such a girl.

Ha ha...

Speaking of masturbate...

Weekend Update

This is my weekend update.

I went to that icky thing with my family.

It wasn't as bas as I thought it would've been.

But then again, nothing is.

I ate a salad, and one of my girlfriends from Saint Cloud came up and she came back to my house for the long-weekend.

We had a good time.

We made some crap, and did some shit on the Wii.

Fun was had by all.

I ate so much.

I couldn't stop being hungry.

And today, I wasn't hungry at all.

I was so depressed today.

I didn't want to get out of bed.

I wanted to cry like, all day but I couldn't because I was out in public.

I remembered something about myself today.

I get jealous so bad and so easily, and for really stupid reasons.

And then I get sad.

It's bad.

Augh!

I got carbonated beverage in my hair and it's so sticky.

I'm going to go wash it out.

I can't wait to take a shower tonight.

I have to go to this thing tonight for my band.

I don't really want to go.

But I have to.

Hey, Mr. Big is going to be there.

No!

Not Chris Noth!

This guy who, I guess I would say I'm sexually attracted to him, but I'm not like, trying to get him to like me, but if he does then that's absolutely fantastic.

You know?

Sorry, that was kind of hard to follow.

Maybe.

To me it makes sense, but I came up with it, so naturally it would.

IF I was trying to make sense.

Even if I wasn't I think I could still follow it myself.

Or at least make something up to it, but that's just me, I like to make things up.

Hmm...

I love kissing.

I had this thought kind of, and it was kind of like a situation that I came up with in my mind, and it made me really happy, but I can't remember what it was.

That makes me sad, because I liked it.

It was like a dream that I had when I was awake.

Crap-o.

Lately, not lately, like, the past six months or so I've had a really hard time separating my dreams from reality.

Like, I got really pissed at one of my friends for something that happened in my dream, and I seriously thought that it happened for real. But it didn't.

And I was really really confused.

That happens to me all the time.

If you leave I just don't think I could take it.

I'm listing to "Ladies of Cambridge" by Vampire Weekend.

It's a really good song.

I love it so much.

I got it this weekend.

I highly recommend it.

Now I'm going to look at the free song/video of the week.

They were all very bad.

I didn't like the free song, the discovery, or the video.

Another bad week.

Last week was bad too.

But the one before was pretty good.

If you haven't looked at them you can skip it.

Or look out of curiosity.

I would if I was in this situation.

Because I can't take not knowing something.

You know?

I'm going to stop before I ramble.

Today was a very sexy day.

A very sexy one indeed.

Not, like, sexy...

wait let me change it,

Today was a very marvellous day.

No, not even.

It was just good.

It was very good.

On the high end of good.

Anyway...

But yeah, it was a very sexy day.

Some of the sexy was weird and uncomfortable, but otherwise it was good.

I had a conversation with that guy.

You know who I'm talkin' about.

The one I talked about a while ago.

I... it sounds lame, but I could not stop smiling afterwords.

It was good.

But yeah, a real- though three sentence- conversation.

It's a start...

And then the other guy, from my dream a while back, he got pretty close to me.

In real life even.

Not in a dream.

I'm lame.

But it was good for me.

Still though...

In the middle of the day I just kind of deflated.

I got pretty depressed.

Not about anything, but you know that feeling.

'Twas just sad.

But I'm pretty good right now.

I can't wait until Cj calls me and I can tell her about my day.

She makes me happy.

Ha ha...

I want to have kinky sex in a shower somewhere.

That will be a goal of mine.

I will have to write that down with the others.

I'm going post my goals on here someday.

I think they are pretty good.

I would love someone else's opinion when I do.

(Large wink)

loveyougoodbye

This should be added too.

Okay, normally I'm against posting things twice in one day, but I think it would be a good idea to post my dreams on here, because they are mildly entertaining.

Okay, here is one I had a couple nights ago.

I was walking around inside this big building, okay? And all of the people who are in one of my business classes, were there, and we were walking around, and all of a sudden it got very dark and this fog started to roll in, which was weird because were were inside, and then this fountain full of green stuff and fog popped up in the middle of the room, and I ran into this guy I sit next too in my class in real life and I leaned in to hug him, but it was just his waist, and we just stood there for a while, and then he picked me up and we ran out into this canyon, and we were running from something and all of a sudden these boulders that were alive were chasing us and we ran into a cave, and Kyle was there, and we said 'hi' and then left and run up this cliff into this house were this women was entertaining a weird group of people, and she was talking about the renovations she had made to her house, and I was thinking that it was just a horrible thing to do with a house because there was all this wasted space and these stupid shelves that had no purpose, but then the guy picked me up again and we jumped out the window, and the boulders were chasing us again, and then we ran up another cliff to Ireland, and then we walked into a pub, and it was the same pub from the movie about the two guys that go to England and one gets killed and the other is a werewolf, you know that movie, which is a good movie, but I haven't seen it in a while, so it was weird that it was in my dream, but then we started to drink champagne, and there was so much of it, and then we ran away in to this field back into the library type building we were in in the beginning of my dream and then the dream started over again, and I woke up.

It was a good dream.