Numbered Lists.

Things bad with my life right now:

1. I look like a lesbian from 1996.
2. I've recently lost my sense of humour until further notice for reasons unbeknownst to me.
3. I'm still invisible and/or just not worth paying attention to, to everybody around me.
4. I'm tired and uninterested with life.
5. I'm cold.
6. I can't find the remote to my telly, and you can't change the channel otherwise.
7. I need to do laundry, but I'm never home when the washer is empty.

Things not-so-bad with my life right now.

1. I recently finished a hat I can't ever wear because everybody is a fuck nugget.
2. There are some hockey games tomorrow night I get to go to, and pretend to be happy at.
3. I can wear my hat to hockey.
4. I still have one friend from Saint Hell-hole that talks to me when she has time.
5. Breanna has fleas. (that one makes me laugh)

It's decided!

This summer when Cj comes up for a week, we are going to go camping.
I'm excited about it.
We were talking about how we hate other people interacting with us most of the time, and I suggested that we run away to a forest for a couple days, but camping seemed like a better idea.
Safer.

I ain't wack!
Step-off, bitch.

Um...
Shit.
I can't ever remember anything.

Crap, I love to dance.
I can't wait until I have a car.
On the weekends I'm going to kidnap Cj, and we are going to go to Minneapolis to dance.
Just do that all Friday and Saturday night.
We'll come back on on Sunday.
That will be amazing.
I don't know if I can get Cj to dance though.
Maybe I will take Heather.
She seems like she would be more willing to dance, but I don't know if she could stay serious about it.
But, Maybe all three of us could go together.
Cj and Heather would get along.
But that would be three people.
That's a big social no-no.
I need one more slightly attractive, some-what outgoing (but more closed in) female friend.
That has gas and food money.
That's going to be a tough one.
I'll look around for one.

I'll have to put that on my to-do list.

Picture time.
Hey, I went to this hotel for a week one time.
And I got like, six things out of this machine, and I decided that if there is a god, (Like, what, 0 percent there is) but if so for some reason, this is it.

Weekend Update

This is my weekend update.

I went to that icky thing with my family.

It wasn't as bas as I thought it would've been.

But then again, nothing is.

I ate a salad, and one of my girlfriends from Saint Cloud came up and she came back to my house for the long-weekend.

We had a good time.

We made some crap, and did some shit on the Wii.

Fun was had by all.

I ate so much.

I couldn't stop being hungry.

And today, I wasn't hungry at all.

I was so depressed today.

I didn't want to get out of bed.

I wanted to cry like, all day but I couldn't because I was out in public.

I remembered something about myself today.

I get jealous so bad and so easily, and for really stupid reasons.

And then I get sad.

It's bad.

Augh!

I got carbonated beverage in my hair and it's so sticky.

I'm going to go wash it out.

I can't wait to take a shower tonight.

I have to go to this thing tonight for my band.

I don't really want to go.

But I have to.

Hey, Mr. Big is going to be there.

No!

Not Chris Noth!

This guy who, I guess I would say I'm sexually attracted to him, but I'm not like, trying to get him to like me, but if he does then that's absolutely fantastic.

You know?

Sorry, that was kind of hard to follow.

Maybe.

To me it makes sense, but I came up with it, so naturally it would.

IF I was trying to make sense.

Even if I wasn't I think I could still follow it myself.

Or at least make something up to it, but that's just me, I like to make things up.

Hmm...

I love kissing.

I had this thought kind of, and it was kind of like a situation that I came up with in my mind, and it made me really happy, but I can't remember what it was.

That makes me sad, because I liked it.

It was like a dream that I had when I was awake.

Crap-o.

Lately, not lately, like, the past six months or so I've had a really hard time separating my dreams from reality.

Like, I got really pissed at one of my friends for something that happened in my dream, and I seriously thought that it happened for real. But it didn't.

And I was really really confused.

That happens to me all the time.

If you leave I just don't think I could take it.

I'm listing to "Ladies of Cambridge" by Vampire Weekend.

It's a really good song.

I love it so much.

I got it this weekend.

I highly recommend it.

Now I'm going to look at the free song/video of the week.

They were all very bad.

I didn't like the free song, the discovery, or the video.

Another bad week.

Last week was bad too.

But the one before was pretty good.

If you haven't looked at them you can skip it.

Or look out of curiosity.

I would if I was in this situation.

Because I can't take not knowing something.

You know?

I'm going to stop before I ramble.

Please don't void your bowls on my rug.

I came home early today.

I am sick.

Hmm...

Blogging in the afternoon.

Ha ha...

Afternoon delight.

I like that song.

It's okay.

Hmm.

I have nothing else really to say.

Crap.

I can't find my phone charger, and my phone is dead.

That is a bad situation.

I'm sure it's under the couch somewhere.

Still.

People are going to be curious of my whereabouts in about an hour.

I'm going to take a much needed nap.

Then I have work to do.

I have a question.

Never mind.

I can't word it the way I want to.

It sounds really dumb.

I will just ask Cj or Kasey.

They always have an answer for these kinds of questions.

Today was a very sexy day.

A very sexy one indeed.

Not, like, sexy...

wait let me change it,

Today was a very marvellous day.

No, not even.

It was just good.

It was very good.

On the high end of good.

Anyway...

But yeah, it was a very sexy day.

Some of the sexy was weird and uncomfortable, but otherwise it was good.

I had a conversation with that guy.

You know who I'm talkin' about.

The one I talked about a while ago.

I... it sounds lame, but I could not stop smiling afterwords.

It was good.

But yeah, a real- though three sentence- conversation.

It's a start...

And then the other guy, from my dream a while back, he got pretty close to me.

In real life even.

Not in a dream.

I'm lame.

But it was good for me.

Still though...

In the middle of the day I just kind of deflated.

I got pretty depressed.

Not about anything, but you know that feeling.

'Twas just sad.

But I'm pretty good right now.

I can't wait until Cj calls me and I can tell her about my day.

She makes me happy.

Ha ha...

I want to have kinky sex in a shower somewhere.

That will be a goal of mine.

I will have to write that down with the others.

I'm going post my goals on here someday.

I think they are pretty good.

I would love someone else's opinion when I do.

(Large wink)

loveyougoodbye