Huzzah!!!

I just bought my new album!
Yay!
I'm on the fourth track right now.
It's really fantastic.
*sigh*...
Yes. I'm happy.
I just finished eating breakfast-lunch-dinner and over all I feel pretty satisfied.
I could go for a shag, but it's just me here so I guess that will have to wait...


I wrote quite a bit today.
I think I'm going to take a short break from concentrating on poetry and move to more philosophical things. Just for a little bit.
My brain is spitting out those kinds of things so I'm going to roll with it.
It's also thinking up really silly, witty prose, and I'm quite happy with that.
I hope we can work something out to continue the manufacturing of silly, witty prose.

Hmm...
I'm in love.
And it feels good.
I want to visit a place that looks how I feel.
Holland?
Possibly...

I almost forgot what I came here for!
I've been reading this comic I re-found on the internet.
Lovely!
This is not my favourites, but it kind of went with my day so I wanted to share...

Love,
Emma

Billy Williams?

You know... I've been thinking quite a lot the past week... and it turns out all of my problems are completely internally-created. Get it? I make my life harder for myself. And I don't mean to do it. I really wish I could change my personality a little bit so I wasn't an opportunistic, jealous (this seems to be my biggest problem), kind of person who bottles up her emotions and doesn't know how to put herself before others. That would help immensely. But then I think... Would it really?
If I didn't make myself miserable, would I still be a moderately happy person? If there was nothing for me to complain about; If there was nothing for me to be sad about, would I still be happy?
I don't think so.
I think I need to be depressed to be happy.
I need a reason to be the centre of attention.
Why?
Why do I need people to be sympathetic for me?
There is nothing wrong with my life.
I have a fantastic life compared to most of the world.

... What's wrong with me?
And what would happen if I could forget about all that.
Ignore the things that bother me and find peace within myself.
Start on a path for finding peace within the world, and eventually the universe...
Hey...
Is that what enlightenment is?
Hmm...
Then again, what would that be?
"Enlightenment".
In other words, total happiness.
Bliss if you will.
Eternal bliss.
Is that possible?
Can any one living creature forget all the things that upset them, be content with themselves, not be angry with anyone being on earth, and just be satisfied with the overall state of the universe?
Has anything done that?
Can the brain do that?
Can I do that?
Could I be the first to?
Should I even bother?
I'm just going to die.
And so is everyone.
Everything is going to revert to it's original state of simple matter eventually.
Is there any point to anything?
Does anything I do matter if it's not going to change the eventual, final outcome?

I don't know...

Lawl.

I had to share this because I can't stop laughing.
It's... delightful!

Dancing.

Tomorrow is going to be so long.
I'm going to be leaving my house at eight in the morning, and returning after nine...
That's ridiculous.

Hmm... I don't really have anything to say, I'm just using this to procrastinate.
I have so little work to do, but I don't want to do it...
So I'm just going to be spitting out random thoughts.

Hey, I think I know how I want to contribute to society!
I think. I don't know.
I still have to philosophise about it for quite some time, but I'm pretty sure I have myself almost figured out.
I'm happy.
Although I'm still very upset because I can't do a stupid cartwheel.
That should be an easy feat to accomplish!
But I can't. >:(
I will though.
Someday...

One. More. Week.
I have been waiting two months for this album to come out.
The date is written on all of my calendars.
And. I. Am. So. Excited.
... Yay!
I'm going to blag about it when I purchase it.
Be prepared...

Do you like my new background colour?
It's called "FFFFCC".
I love it.
I wish I had a room this colour.
Or something large that I look at everyday.
Such as a couch or a person or something.
I don't know...

I'm going to leave now.
To... dance.
To dance the dance of life!
Woo!

Day Too Soon

I'm having one of those moments right now, where you need someone to sympathise with you, so I'm reaching out to the internet.

I... am terrified of things to come. I don't know what I want to do with myself. I don't know how I should contribute to society. I feel like the only thing I'm suited to do is sit behind a desk in a monotone office. I don't want to do that... I want to be able to make wonderful things and have people enjoy them, but I haven't had a creative thought in like a fortnight and I feel like I'm never going to get one again. I don't know what do to... There is so much more that is upsetting me, but I want to keep it to myself for now...