Saturday 20 February 2010

a number.

I have a classic question for you:
How much of an individual am I?


All throughout our childhood and even a little now, we are told that we are special; there is no one like us in the world. But to what extent is this true? There is you, and there are 6 billion, and growing, other people in this tiny blue stone. Is there enough diversity on a molecular level that can completely make one person an individual? The short answer is YES. Because, well, there is. But hard facts aside, there is always some point in one's life where their "special-ness" is questioned. Whether it is because of a close passer-by that seems to be jacking your look, or it is the sudden realization that every-other chick in your generation has the same coat, same shoes, and same usual at Starbucks, there is going to be some point in your life in which you feel like just another forest-green blade of grass...

I'm blogging about this because I came across quite a few things today that raised this question in my mind, and I wondered how much other people think about this. I wondered, how many other people try so hard to be their own person, and think they stand out from everybody else, when really the only thing keeping them from disappearing into a crowd is the fact that they aren't invisible.
I think everybody wants to be so different and special and new and clever and admired by everybody around them. It's a human urge; a basic instinct to be the center of everybody's attention. And that makes me wonder how much of our lives is spent trying to achieve that; how much disappointment we face because even when we try, we can't completely be different from everybody else. There is always someone with better ideas and is a little more brave to stand up and say what they think in some way or another.

I wonder if we can learn to let go of this want to be the red tulip in a field of yellow, and just do what what you want to do; eat what you're hungry for; dress in what is most comfortable; live whatever life style is natural to you... If that can make everything a little more blissful.